Feeling fat

It's true when they say with subsequent pregnancies you start showing earlier. I'm not even 8 weeks yet and I'm showing already...my jeans are getting tight...and I can tell I'm bloated. I really don't "look" pregnant....I look fat. I can't wait until I get past the "looking fat" stage and get to the "looking pregnant" stage.

I will post a picture on Wed when I'm 8 weeks.

My u/s is this Thursday. People have been asking me if I'm excited. To be honest, I'm really not. I'm scared. The closer it gets, the more scared I become. With what happened last time (had an u/s at 8 weeks with my last pg and there wasn't a h/b....there wasn't even a baby) I'm terrified of it happening again.

Not to mention I'm really not looking forward to drinking all that water and not being able to pee. I can barely handle it when my bladder is a quarter full....so this is going to be painful. And I hate drinking that much water. ick.

I'm looking forward to the u/s being over...so then if all goes well, I can finally feel really happy about this pg.